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Rudderless

      I had planned to write about something different in this post. I almost always have a few different ideas for posts that I draw from each month unless there's something more pressing to discuss. Well, this month, there was something more pressing.     On the morning of February 19, I called my care receiver for our biweekly check-in. She didn't answer, so I left her a message on her voice mail and sent her a text. I was a bit worried, especially since I hadn't been able to talk to her on the 5th either, but I knew that sometimes she had issues with her phone, so I thought that maybe that was happening again. Unfortunately, that wasn't the problem this time. About an hour later, I got a text from her number saying it was her sister and asking me how I knew her. Before I could respond, the sister called to inform me that she had died a week earlier.       I am thankful that though she is gone now, I was able to give her a sense of peace t...

Haven't Seen it Yet

"All His promises Are just up ahead Maybe you just haven't seen it Just haven't seen it yet" ~ Danny Gokey, " Haven't Seen it Yet " Have you ever questioned God? I know I have. My life has not always been an easy one, and I have struggled with many doubts throughout different stages. There was even a time recently where I questioned him about the name of this very blog. I sometimes wonder if there are people who read the name of my blog and shy away from it because it sounds like it's deeply theological. Godly Insights for the 21st Century Life  sounds more like the title of a book written by one of today's top theologians than a blog written by a special ed para from Kansas. For a while, I considered changing it to something that sounded more relateable. However, I couldn't ever come up with a name that seemed more appropriate. I soon began to realize that the beauty of the name is that it honestly looks at how to follow God among the...

Is God Enough?

"Who have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on Earth I desire other than you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."-Psalm 73:25-26 In high school and college, one of my favorite bands was Barlowgirl, and a song of theirs I really enjoyed was Psalm 73 (My God's Enough) , which is based on the verses quoted above. Since hearing the song for the first time, I have listened to and sang along with it too many times to count. However, I have not always lived up to the challenge of actually letting God be enough in my life. About two months ago, I was reminded of one of those times, although it occurred before I had ever heard the song. My parents and I had to put my beloved cat Angel to sleep on March 13th after having her for almost 14 years. We got her because following Grandma's death, I searched for anything I could to fill the void in my heart, and I was sure a kitten would do the trick. While I loved h...